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яσвιи яє∂вяєαѕт ([personal profile] birdsbirdsbirds) wrote in [community profile] psychoshenanigans2016-04-18 08:46 am
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Nebulous // PSL

[what's worse: the fact that this is his sixth world-shift, or that he's starting to get used to them?

the sudden change of pace is disorienting, but he's always been sharpest in a crisis. he keeps his head down, follows the neon signs and loud music until he finds a crowd too strung-out to ask many questions. sure, it's immoral to sleep with someone just to rifle through their identification and use their internet connection, but he left that ethical horizon behind a long time ago.

helpful thing, that internet. sure is a lot more connected than the intrabase ever got, back home.

long story short, he keeps picking through sources and contacts until he gets an in with a group of local hackers... nothing flashy, really, just some college dropouts who like to get high and pick apart database security for kicks. they specialize in unearthing "government conspiracies", and Robin happens to be great at connecting the dots.

they start calling him Nines (his handle is "9thking" where necessary). his research into portals to other dimensions--which you'd think wouldn't have much of a search return--takes him pretty deep into the Hydra case. his reputation spreads from there, with him getting pings whenever a recovery or a hack uncovers something with six tentacles and a skull on it. sometimes literally. old photographs, and such.

so it's no surprise that he'd attract the attention of people looking for current members of the organization. he's just biding his time, sharing a crummy flat and poking around one secret society or another. he doesn't have any other cards to play yet, and even if he did--where would he go with them? so he waits for something else to happen, because his joke of a life can't go on for very long without someone delivering a punchline.]
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[personal profile] enshields 2016-04-18 06:29 pm (UTC)(link)
[The body wants to live. It's what he keeps coming back to. It gets hungry, it needs oxygen, it needs sleep. It wants to live. Stripped down, the human husk is a thing of instinct. It focuses on necessities. It does not require emotion to exist. An animalistic life is still a life. After all, aren't humans animals?

But even animals can love, and Steve Rogers remembers everything.

His mother, her face, her perfume. The Brooklyn smog, the white-washed buildings that turned black as the foundries spat coal into the air. He never saw the stars until Europe, he remembers that.

Bucky Barnes. Peggy Carter. Evelyn Scott. Scraped knees, glass-bottled Coke, Christmas hams, painting hotel lobbies and delivering newspapers and rotten apples saturating the air. Everything before the War. Everything after. Seventy years of lost time. And then he sees Bucky on a mall rooftop and it rattles everything loose, and he goes AWOL.

The first six months he's out of Hydra he lives a vagrant life. Grows his hair, a beard, steals clothing off clotheslines and warms his hand over oilbarrel fires. He finds he can't sleep unless he's crammed himself in some small space that barely gives him breathing room.

And then he wakes up one morning, walks back into Bucky's life and relieves him of half his wardrobe, a razor and a single side-arm, and with that he goes to war. The shield, he leaves behind. It's not his, he won't carry it.

He cuts a swath through Hydra, leaves a hundred scientists with snapped necks and glassy eyes. One in Argentina locks himself in a jail-cell and Steve rips the wrought-iron right out of the rock. Captain America was a good man, who knew mercy and moderation. The mutable shape he took in the shadows after is just a killer who remembers what it was like.

And sometimes, he can pretend. He's learned how to twist himself up into something he's not. He can be Captain America. He can be Steve Rogers. He can be Bucky Barnes, too, or any of the other men he's met long enough to catalogue the way they move, the way they speak and breathe and hold their cigarettes. A weapon is useless unless it can be concealed.

So the Soldier talks to all the right people, says all the right words. He listens to conversations whispered in corners. It leads him straight to Robin.

He cases the place over the course of several days and then, when Robin's out one day he lets himself into the apartment and simply stands stock-still in the centre of the living room with its flickering overhead light fixture and its clean-but-not carpet. From there, it's just a waiting game. He's dressed like Steve Rogers might, in modern clothes with a modern hair-cut, clean-shaven and well-fed. A body is a husk that requires regular maintenance. He isn't stupid enough to neglect it, even in favour of vengeance. As soon as 'Nines' comes through the door, the Soldier speaks (his intonation is eerily flat, stripped down, as if the only utility of the words is their innate meaning and not the implications of inflection),]


We need to talk.
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[personal profile] enshields 2016-04-18 11:52 pm (UTC)(link)
[The Soldier lacks in hesitation. Doubt. Fear. All things can be set aside. All things have, and are.

Very few people use that name.

He can hear the clock on the wall two rooms over ticking over a cacophony of absolute silence. No one uses that name because everyone who knew it, save two, are dead. When Sam Wilson asked what he'd like to be called, he'd told him, whatever you want. But he knows familiarity. He knows anguish. He heard it in Bucky's voice, catching on the same syllables like a soldier tangled up in razor wire ten feet away from a trench.

His expression flickers. He is still a compassionate man, for all that it's buried beneath ice and choked out by winter's grasp. But his fingers twitch like they're closing on a throat, and he doesn't do well trusting people that bleed around him. Evenly,]


Who are you?

[Why do you know that name?]
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[personal profile] enshields 2016-04-19 06:18 am (UTC)(link)
Lot of that going around.

[It's not said with any especial self-loathing. He is what he is. Monsters have mutable form. His memory of the Before is clear. The after is nearly the same. He hadn't anticipated that things might've slipped through the cracks. He kept a tally on the walls of how many people Evelyn asked him to kill.

Memories can be changed. Taken, twisted, put back wrong. Like puzzle pieces with jigsaw edges badly cut and forced into a shape they were never meant to conform.

This man expects to be remembered. The Soldier can use that to his advantage.]


Are you Hydra?

[Wariness is expected. Even Captain America was suspicious.]
Edited 2016-04-19 06:24 (UTC)
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[personal profile] enshields 2016-04-19 06:00 pm (UTC)(link)
[It's so disingenuous that it gets the first real emotion out of him: disgust. After lifetimes of it, he has no tolerance for being lied to. He has nothing approaching patience for it, and this man is not Evelyn, who could stop him with a word, in his tracks. It's time to go home, Captain. The words grate on the inside of his skull, he wants to scrape them out with a goddamned scalpel, but he'd use his hands if it got bad enough, fingernails snapped like matchsticks on bone.

No more lies. No more.

An observable difference, one James has mentioned to him quietly, is that Steve Rogers never used his body like a weapon. He was always conscious of his size, of his strength, and he went to lengths to try and mitigate the danger he posed to everyone except their enemies. The Soldier, then, is the distillation of all the impulses Rogers either avoided or ignored. He moves like he expects the walls to get out of his way and rivers to part before him, he uses his lethality in conscious, in spectacular ways, and he takes a step towards Robin now. Danger rolls off of him like a stormfront.

Very, very calmly,]


Call me 'sir' again and I'll break your neck. How do you know me?
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[personal profile] enshields 2016-04-19 06:40 pm (UTC)(link)
[With flat irritation,]

Try me.

[Anything can happen in the new world. The one he built for Evelyn is imperfect, threatened by aliens and gods and all the monsters in between. He won't rest until all of Hydra is dead. He doesn't care if they go cleanly to whatever afterlife awaits them. But his suspension of disbelief is-- impressive, these days. There's little that warrants surprise.]
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[personal profile] enshields 2016-04-21 12:29 am (UTC)(link)
[He processes the words, the intent, the exact meaning. Then he blinks. It's so far-and-gone outlandish that, while skeptical, he doesn't actively pursue an interrogatory stance. Either the man is telling the truth, or he's insane. A Hydra operative would have known better than to try inter-dimensional bullshit as a cover-story.]

You knew Captain America.

[Which was why he reacted as he did. Interesting. James Barnes did much the same.]
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[personal profile] enshields 2016-04-21 03:09 am (UTC)(link)
[The man he was before hated the name. It occurs to the Soldier he would have never given it out if he had half a choice. He folds his arms.]

It's what they call him. Steve Rogers, Captain America. [There's a very faint shiver to him, the transition from one pair of dancin' shoes to another. Then,] I never liked it much.